It has been three weeks since I started feeling lethargic. Lazy to get up and just get going. I do not want to go to the office, I would rather sleep all day. Motherhood is more of a task as I just do not have the energy nor the capacity to engage full on with my energetic toddler. I cannot be bothered to cook. The thought of standing in the kitchen actually makes me want to cry. I have zero F’s to give generally and I need some serious motivation to get on with it all.
Well a week ago, I got hit with bouts of extreme nausea and then it finally made sense to me! I might actually be pregnant. I mean that would explain my mood swings and my tender boobs. Life just got so hectic I forgot to keep track of the Clue app I downloaded that was helping me track my fertility. I am not good at planning things like pregnancy. I am an organised mess on most days and in saying that, I must confess that the mess is more dominant than the organised part of my disposition.
I took 3 tests – yes 3, because you can never be too sure. They were all positive. We are expecting a baby!!! As much as it is a blessing and we are so excited, I have to be real, this post is actually my time to vent.
I am walking through the isles of the office every week day, like everything is gravy because I have to wait till 12 weeks to confess that I am expecting. After lunch I get hit hard by a wave of drowsiness and nausea that I just want to storm out and drive home. I get home to my little angel who hasn’t seen me all day. She wants to chat endlessly and play with my face, my hair and every body part she can get hold of. She is potty training so between hubby and I (mainly me) we are rushing her to the loo every 30 minutes. SHOOT ME NOW!
The first 12 weeks of pregnancy are really not easy. They are filled with cranky emotions and mean thoughts of things you honestly want to tell people. It is like PMS on steroids. I am miserable, not liking life right now and I am really hating my whatsapp app. I just want to sleep and eat salticrax all day. And no the salticrax aren’t a craving, they just help fight the nausea. That and high calorie fizzy drinks 🙁
If you have never been through pregnancy and would like to know what to expect, I hope this post gives you the real picture that not enough mommies are sharing about. I would also strongly advise you to get yourself a pregnancy survival kit!
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